Swimming in nothingness

Well this is number one of this so called blog so here it goes:

Have you ever felt like you don't know who you are, don't know where you are going, don't know what to do next only that you are not happy in your current situation? Welcome to my life. Everyday i get up and do the same old routine, and i know I'm nothing special because tons of people have this, but this is my blog so shhh and just read, and wonder what to do next, how can i make my life worth living? University has made me ever so happy and i find myself in a place where going to the lumber yard to work is all i look forward to in the week. But now how does this make me feel? Picture this with me for a minute will you, picture yourself in water, just floating, there is no land anywhere in sight, like you are in the middle of the ocean. But now, turn off the lights. Everything is black other than moonlight, which is very dim and always in one place just a little bit in front of you. Now try and swim. This is how i feel. The more I swim, the more lost i am with no sense of direction. The moonlight keeps moving just in front and I can never quite reach it. It is like being in a black box filled with oil. Just think about that for a minute, do you think it feels nice? Everyday i go the more tired i get and the more lost i am. What am i supposed to do with my life. I want to go to school but i hate it so much. Blackness is all i can see and i cant find a way out. Perhaps im stuck forever and perhaps i will never be anything but only time will tell. The water is getting warmer and more black, and so far i have gotten nowhere.